Full

I played guitar in front of people for the first time today. Played and sang, actually. Played and sang a song that I co-wrote, to make things more nerve-wracking. But it was all good happy, I think. Today we had a concert at our house, and the people who played were really good. I met a few new people who were pretty spiffy, and one girl who had read practically every book that I own. I think she'd read Heir Apparent, but I'm not sure. That's a good book, by the way. And I also got to hang out with some of my friends, although one girl who I was really looking forward to seeing couldn't come, so that was sad. Hopefully I'll get to see her soon.
Anyway, to make up for so many boring posts, I guess I'll post this poem I wrote a little bit ago.

Full in heart and full in spirit.
Full of music, can you hear it?
Full in body, full in mind.
Full of people being kind.
Full of mouth and full of tummy,
full of all my friends so chummy.
Full of love and full of life.
Full of seasons without strife.

Now that I read it, it's kind of corny, but there it is.

I am not neurotic! Am I?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism.It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

All dried up

I'm having a serious case of writer's block lately. I mean, yeah, lots of stuff is happening to me, but I don't feel like anything I might have to say will be of interest to anyone. When I'm with people I know I never stop talking, so I guess I kind of feel like an attention hog. I don't really like being in the spotlight that much. Sure, when I'm in drama or speech I like doing well, but I don't really feel comfortable afterwards when people talk to me about it. Last year in drama my part wasn't really HARD, just serious, and people keep/kept saying that I did such a great job when, really, I didn't do that well at all. I just memorized my lines and had a character who was kind of lame. Or something. But all that aside, I think when I'm writing I try to think of what people will like, what will entertain them, or what will teach them something, and gosh, I'm only 16. I don't have any wisdom to impart to anyone. I don't have any valuable life lessons, and nothing really extraordinary happens to me on a regular basis. I'm kind of thinking that my blog is getting *gaspeth* BORING. And we don't want that, now, do we? Maybe it's just because I'm at work so much, and I'm turning into a worky person, or maybe I'm growing up and becoming an adult who has to put away childish things, or maybe I've just never had anything important to say and I just never noticed before. This is kind of turning into a downer post, isn't it? It isn't supposed to be. I'm wondering what's up with my lack of interesting subjects is all about. I did get an idea for a story, two, actually, and I'm thinking one would be good for NaNoWriMo, but I'm not sure, since it's just a beginning, not really a plot. The other one I never feel like I have time to write. But I think you're probably all getting bored of hearing about how awful I am at thinking of things to write about, so I am going to randomly change the subject.

Recently, it has come to my attention that people with boyfriends of girlfriends rapidly get so totally attached to the person in question that it is all they can think about, nay, all they can TALK about. Or they only hang out with that person. If I ever do that, I hope someone will shoot me in the face with a bazooka, because that is probably the most pathetic thing in the world. If I ever have a Signifigant Other, he will be subjected to the worst torture. Namely, hanging out with my friends all the time. Because let's face it: after we're married he's going to have to hang out with them all the time anyway. Not to be unfair I would hang out with his friends, too. I can hang out with a lot of different people, despite my sometimes crippling shyness. It's really weird because sometimes the shyness goes away for a little bit, and then I do something really crazy. Like start a fan club for somebody, or something. But anyway, if I ever have a boyfriend, I will devote several hours a day to not thinking about him, and I will talk about him only as much as I talk about my other friends. Which I do talk about them a lot, so that won't be too bad. I also hope that if I ever break up with someone, I won't be like that guy in that song.
Someday you'll see/It was wrong to leave me/Light a candle in your memory/Turn out the lights and cry myself to sleep/My mascara's running down my cheeks/I haven't left the house in over a week/It won't be long before they miss me/Down where I work at the factory/Oh, Oh Oh. Etc.
But I'm not going to say anything about breaking up in case I do totally break down and not leave the house for months and stuff. Talk about humiliations galore.
No more nights at the disco. You'll be there so I can't go.

This is kind of interesting.

So, I got this from somebody, and I thought it was pretty nifty. It only takes a couple of minutes to do, and it's easy to figure out. Basically, you choose five or six words from the list thing that you think apply to me, enter some name that I know you by, then you can see how your idea of me matches up with mine. There are two links, the words on one are mostly positive, and the words on the other are negative. You don't have to do them both if you don't want to, but I'm not going to be all mad if you do the negative one. Anyway, here are the links, and if you create your own, give me the link.
http://kevan.org/johari?name=Cherrycheesecake
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=Cherrycheesecake

TOO STINKING HOT!

Ugh. Yesterday I thought that I was going to die. Working outside isn't usually so bad, but in this case it was. I think it was like, 100 degrees out, and I was moving mums. This is not exactly fun for me, but hey, I'm getting payed.

It's times like these that I wish I were rich. I know that I don't need to be rich, and I know that I'm very blessed with my family and house and food and clothing and all that other good stuff, but I do wish we had air conditioning. And a video camera. And a few other things, but those are the main ones. I just have to remind myself that there are many people in the world who wish they had what I do have. People who wish they had a billion siblings and clothing and a car (okay, I don't have a car, but my family does) and a house and even my own room. Heck, I remember when I wished that I had some of the things that I have now. What I'm trying to say is that although sometimes I wish for a different life, or more stuff, everything is pretty good around here. Talk about cliche. Man, how do you get the little thingy on it? The only thing I can do is clich`e. and that looks weird and I don't think that's what you're supposed to do. Actually, I think I have to switch to a different language on my keyboard, or something, so nevermind.